~ is killing me I am sorry the narrator is killing me right now narratorThe narrator tell us that he felt guilty over the creativity triggered by his lover's death refrain : To keep oneself from doing , feeling, or indulging in something and especially from following a passing impulse삼가다, 그만두다, 자제하다.반복구, 후렴 so one thing I heard as a refrain throughout that is that if we hide away geekiness tehn ..